"The Diving Bell and the Butterfly"

 The moment the instructor said that I was going down he deflated my compensator gear that made me float. I sank. The initial feeling of a weight belt in proportion of 10% of my body weight pulling me into the sea was the same as I imagined my white rats suffered during my researchs in the lab. I felt sorry for them, it was for the science, but I won't do it anymore in this life.

There was only 50 cm to the surface, the first 5 minutes of adaptation (baptism) diving, artificial respiration underwater ensure my survival. But the fear of running out of air and the anxiety got me. I tried for a few seconds to dominate my mind and not think about all the factors like artificial respiration, 5 millimeters wetsuit without mobility, scuba tank on my back, the immensity of turbid water, I could not think clearly, my "diving bell". I was struggling with myself to go up and could not barely remember the sign to go up. Instructor pulled me up. On the surface I took the regulator of air out of my mouth desperately.

"I need to survive the diving bell of my anxiety." The butterfly has to leave the cocoon overcoming the force of coward thoughts. I went down with the courage that everything depends only on me. I concentrated on breathing and waited fascinated and curious to see what I was going to know in bottom of the sea.

Sailing, flying!

When people ask me why? I say why not? Explore your dreams. Just go beyond your limitations and don't give up in times of failure.

Gull in Armação dos Buzios - '...forth and back to the fishing boats' 

Gulls in Cabo Frio - 'For most gulls, it is not flying that matters, but eating.'

 

“Instead of our drab slogging forth and back to the fishing boats, there's reason to live! We can lift ourselves out of ignorance, we can find ourselves as creatures of excellence and intelligence and skill. We can learn to be free! we can learn to fly!”

“Don’t believe what your eyes are telling you. All they show is limitation. Look with your understanding. Find out what you already know and you will see the way to fly.”


 Jonathan Livingston Seagull - Richard Bach

Thinking outside the pool....

Inspired by a Rush song called Natural Science, and also seeing this up and close very often near rocky shores..... The water of the ocean, when retrieving leaving behind small pools, with lots of marine life..Creates insights to ones personal life....

Many people (us included) lived our lives that way.... inside a pool, busy as hell and doing whatever everybody else was doing, the same rut the same rythm... and yes, totaly forgetting that there is a larger life outside your little pool...

There are people that are quiet happy with this state of apparent comfort and security and they really dont want to know and neither remember of the what is going on outside the pool, and that is fine, but there are also people who are not quiet happy with this, the ones that would like to swap the state of the ilusion of comfort and change it for the (sometimes) descomfort) of another reality... For those people, the ones that want to know what is on the other side of the wall, the ones that are aware of the ocean outside the pool, here is a little piece of advice: Dream it, no limitations, do it, live it.... Think outside the pool....